As much as we would like to blame it on substance or an issue, we will most likely never know what led Chester Bennington to take his own life. The singer shocked his bandmates since the group had a scheduled photo shoot in Hollywood just hours before he was found dead. Sources informed TMZ, Bennington arrived back in LA on Wednesday (19) after taking a trip to Arizona with his wife, Talinda Bennington who stayed in AZ. Chester’s return suggested he took his life either later that Wednesday evening or early Thursday morning.
Linkin Park’s upcoming tour is currently at a standstill, despite Machine Gun Kelly loosely making an assumption on an alleged cancellation. The One More Light world tour was originally set to kick off next week and according to TMZ, a rep for the band informed them that the group are beyond devastated that they currently cannot make a decision. The Xfinity Center in Mansfield have received hundreds of calls from ticketholders, who are being told to “standby.” TMZ was informed a decision on the tour will most likely happen at some point today.
Metal Injection recently transcribed a few of Bennington’s final interviews which has shown signs of depression.
Music Choice shared the singer was haunted by problems he caused by himself:
“My whole life, I’ve just felt a little off and I find myself getting into these patterns of behavior or thought. Especially when I’m stuck up here [points to head]. I heard somebody say this once and it stuck with me, but this [pointing to his head] is a bad neighborhood and I should not go walking alone. Most of my problems are problems that I cause myself.”
The Mirror shared excerpts from one of his final interviews conducted this past May:
“I came to a point in my life where I was like, ‘I can either just give up and fucking die or I can fucking fight for what I want. And I chose to fight for what I wanted. I wanted to have good relationships. I wanted to love the people in my life. I wanted to enjoy my job. I wanted to enjoy being a dad and having friends and just getting up in the morning. Because that was a struggle for me.”
“For me personally when we first started working on this record I was coming out of the darkest time of my life and it was all shit that I was doing to myself. It was all stuff that I had control over but even though I felt differently at the time. I felt like the world was full of shit and everybody I knew was full of shit and life sucks and I was like ‘Fuck it.’ All that stuff it was just internal.”
“It was all really things I could work on if I chose to, and make myself happy. You know? Make myself capable of dealing with life on life’s terms, like it’s not always going to be peaches and cream but it doesn’t always have to suck when it’s not. For me it took a lot of work. It actually took me opening up and talking to my friends about it and writing about it, and like going to therapy and battling my demons.”